Wednesday, 20 November 2013
Wednesday, 30 October 2013
"By making it a daily practice to notice all that is good in your life, the joy in your heart has the tendency to overflow. And when it does, you are able to funnel that excess love and happiness straight into the hearts of those you most want to see smile."
I used to do that. I used to actively practise gratitude (as per this blog), but somewhere along the way it fell by the by. It somehow got pushed into the "Too Much Effort" basket it got covered with washing that needed to be done/folded/put away. (Blogging also sometimes falls under that pile of washing too - my problem is that I take too long to write/edit/reread my posts. I must stop being so pedantic. I digress. I do that too much too).
It's not really that much effort (the gratitude AND the blogging).
So here goes today's effort:
Baby girl's woken up three times tonight to be resettled (weeds), but I didn't put her to bed so I got to do the last resettle and got lovely kisses and cuddles and a sigh of contentment when I went up (flowers).
I had to do the grocery shopping tonight (weeds), but enjoyed a little bit of quiet time to myself (flowers).
What were your flowers and weeds today?
(Just as an aside, I have to post this ridiculously cute video of this baby. Got me a touch teary and had me singing to baby girl all day. So much love!)
I have *just* noticed that I've lost all my blog pictures when I moved my account over to gmail (weeds), but that gives me a chance to look through old pictures I enjoy when I get a chance (flowers). (I admit it, that one's a stretch.)
Saturday, 14 September 2013
I've never been thin as an adult/teenager. Ever. I've always had body issues, and I can openly admit that. (Although, like many others, I'd love to have my 17 year old body back. Cliched or not, I didn't realise how good I had it!) I know it's not realistic to expect my pre-baby body back right away (even 9 months on, I'm no where close to it.)
So today, I was busy feeling sorry for myself for gaining all the weight I lost before getting pregnant. Then I looked up and I saw my girl staring at me from her perch on Phill's knee, and she broke into one of her gorgeous, gummy smiles.
And what I saw was love. So much love. So much acceptance. Acceptance of me, just the way I am. My many wobbly bits, unkempt hair, and the crooked scar that now runs across the base of my belly. The belly that carried, protected, sheltered and nurtured her for 38 weeks. The belly that she cuddles into and squishes when she's sleepy. My arms, that I bemoan for losing their definition, she sees as safety - a home that will always be there for her, to enfold and cuddle her when she needs it. She doesn't see the dark circles under my eyes, or the skin that is less than radiant. She sees that she makes my heart smile - a smile that reaches my eyes and makes them twinkle. My baby girl sees my value more clearly than I do.
I have now made a promise to love myself as much as Phillip and Akina love me.
I'm so very blessed.
Saturday, 10 August 2013
While chattering inanely to my daughter today, I heard some of the strange things I now say (on a regular basis)...
In no particular order, at some point I have said (more than likely many times):
- Under no circumstances are you to put your fingers in my nose.
- Here, gnaw on my finger dear.
- Please hold still while I pick your nose.
- Did you enjoy sucking on my chin?
- Meh, it's only a bit of spew - it'll dry and you won't really be able to see it.
- Please, please, please poop.
- I need more tutus.
- You know, pureed pumpkin, carrot and beef actually doesn't taste too bad.
- I had heaps of sleep last night - 5 hours in a row!
- I wonder how easily I can expose my breast in this top...
Friday, 9 August 2013
So things have been a bit busy and my knitting needles haven't been able to go full speed ahead, but here are my latest projects (and by latest, I mean dating back to November 2012.) (I also ripped apart several projects - WIP #1 & #3 from this post - after baby girl was born, so my output's been a bit low.)
|A little bolero cardigan in a beautiful, warm, light merino that my darling girl has enjoyed wearing. Love how it turned out, but sewing the edging on was a pain in the behind. This was my first finished project after she was born! It took 4 months... There was very little knitting time to begin with. Thankfully that's changing.|
|My second project after her birth... I was keen to try out doing cables. They weren't nearly as hard as I thought as they would be. I also love how this vest turned out. Made with a beautiful Alpaca/Merino blend wool from Skeinz. This one only took a month!|
|Hands down, my favourite project. Last year when we went to visit our new niece in Feilding, we stopped at my favourite wool shop on the way and I picked up some more wool. I fell in love with this colourway (aptly named Watermelon) and had to have it. When I found out I was expecting, I was secretly hoping it was a girl so I could knit her something special with my beautiful wool. The pattern was actually quite easy and pleasant knitting. This one also took a month.|
|Smittens - a holiday garland... next time I knit a Christmas gift for a friend, I will start it earlier than mid-November - especially if it's a big project like this one. I'm thrilled with how it turned out though (and I think Bexki liked it!) Also, an Advent Calendar, given on Christmas Eve means that the recipient can open 24 little gifts the next day! I used scraps, leftovers and the wool I dyed with Kool-Aid (so those little mittens smelled delicious!) (This one should be first, but it keeps getting bumped down... I did this one while preggers and kept me busy while I was in and out of hospital in December. If it wasn't for those hospital visits, I doubt it would have gotten finished in time!)|
I'm presently working on another wee vest for a friend's boy, finishing a sock and eyeing up hat patterns for a baby that is due in December (Just to clarify, not my baby due in December. A family member's bub.) I missed the soothing sounds of my clickety-clacking needles.